Would you rather:
(a)
Vomiting and diarrhea
(b)
Fever and chills
(c)
Pink eye
(d)
Headaches, muscle pain and cough
(e)
All of the above.
I have been praying for some time now to be a gentler
mother, a more present-in-the-moment mother.
God provided a fabulous opportunity.
Because I was so very helpless, I quite literally had to beg Him for the
strength to get through each day. I
found myself amazed at how calm I was, at the strength to persevere. I was pretty patient and was able to comfort
my children quite nicely. “Thank you,
God, for allowing me to be the mother I always wanted to be,” I prayed to Him
one evening. Of course, the very next
morning I had to see who I really was (short-tempered, impatient, easily
irritated), in order to give all the glory to God for “my” gentleness and
patience. I saw once again ‘who I am’
versus WHO IS.
After being reminded once again that conversion is a
life-long process and that without God I am nothing, my young daughter started
to notice all that WE (Blessed Mama and me together) were doing. She kept thanking me for every little thing –
giving out medicine or cold washcloths, doctor visits, hot soup, bubbly soda for
those with upset stomachs. She noticed
all the laundry I was doing, all the disinfecting, all the stories I read. She thanked me for each movie she watched,
and the meals I prepared. She noticed
all the homework assignments I helped with, and the little errands I ran. She noticed every little thing! I could only smile and give the glory to God. As she complimented me on being such a good
mom, I forwarded the thanks to Blessed Mama.
I already knew how frustrated I felt on the inside, and how exhausted I
felt. I smiled, too, because I was so
grateful that Blessed Mama was carrying me, and that those around me got a
glimpse of her presence. I was amazed at
the gratitude that my daughter expressed, and couldn’t help but ask myself, “How
aware am I of all the little things that Blessed Mama does for me? How grateful am I?”
And so, it is a special grace if you discover the maternal
role of Mary in your life.
Why do you receive this grace?
This is a mystery of God’s
election.
But remember, the grace needs a
committed response.
You do not receive a talent in
order to bury it in the ground.
You must make use of it – in accordance
with the will of God –
for your own sanctification and for
the sanctification of others.
Because of this, implore Mary that
your whole life
may be permeated by the awareness
that you are ‘carried by her in her
arms.’
(S.C.
Biela,
In the Arms of Mary, 2nd.ed,
rev. [Ft. Collins, CO: IAMF, 2005],
173).
And so, looking at these events in the light of faith, why
not be grateful for an infected swimming pool?
God must have allowed it as He saw fit, knowing it would further push me
into the arms of my Mother. Is there any other place I’d rather be?
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