Faced with this realization, I go back and forth between two thoughts. One is – why not eat and enjoy myself? I had two grandmas – the one who was heavier was more fun and always had a treat to offer. Why not be the happy go lucky grandma who surrounds her family with delicious smells and tasty treats? Who says I have to be thin and restrict myself?
Thought two – if I am to be around to see my children and their children grow up, then shouldn’t I see the value in maintaining a healthy lifestyle? Being healthy will give me more endurance. I might be more comfortable sitting at Adoration of the Blessed Sacrament if I was more fit. I might more joyfully serve the Church if I was not so tired all the time.
Thought two – if I want to see my children and their children in the next life, then shouldn’t I see the value in maintaining a healthy spiritual life? Receiving my “daily bread” will give me more endurance. I might be able to love Christ in my neighbor more, think first of others, if I was more spiritually fit. I might more joyfully be a channel of graces for others, and not feel so tired of doing it, if I was seeking first the Kingdom of God.
Hmmmm….what a dilemma. Seems to me, the only solution is entrustment to Mary! Hiding in Her womb, I want to allow her to carry me through my days, obtaining the graces for me necessary to do GOD’s will and not my own. On my own, I feed my ego. But, with Her, I have a chance to seek what is best for me and all my dear ones. Thanks Blessed Mother.
“A person who concentrates on himself and is full of his own plans becomes very slothful with regard to the Holy Spirit….When you begin to seek help in your helplessness, you will hear the knocking of the One who, upon crossing the border into your world, desires to rescue you. God desires that you seek nothing other than Him.” S.C. Biela, Open Wide the Door to Christ, (Ft.Collins, CO: IAMF, 2005), 135 and 192