Today my husband and I had a task to fulfill up in the mountains. We set our alarms for 6:30 a.m. with the goal of leaving our house at 7:00 a.m. to head off on our 2.5-hour drive. For the third day in a row, I found myself waking up before my alarm. I was dismayed to see the clock was 5:45 a.m. When my husband looked at his clock at 6:00 a.m. I let him know I was awake and asked if we should get ready. He said, “Let’s do it.” So out the door we were by 6:30 a.m., two night owls who hate getting up early.
We weren’t sure if we’d hit a lot of ski traffic or not. Our plan was to go directly to our destination as we were meeting someone. However, there was no traffic. A restroom break was calling my husband just as we were approaching the town where a priest friend lives. I knew there was a bathroom in the Church and I had to wonder, would he be offering a Mass this Saturday morning? I couldn’t remember if he usually said it at 8 or 8:30 a.m., and we were pulling into the parking lot at 7:50. As we entered the Church we noticed the candles were lit on the altar and there was a man sitting in the front pew. I quickly asked him if there was going to be Holy Mass. He said, “Yes.” Yes!!
There was so much joy in my heart to think we could 1) surprise our friend by being in the Church when he walked out for the Mass and 2) WE WERE GOING TO RECEIVE THE EUCHARIST on a day that I anticipated we weren’t going to be able to. Taking my joy one step further, our priest friend came out and in response to seeing us in the pew said he would offer the Holy Mass for our intentions! Treat beyond treat!
During our drive before our stop, I was sharing with my husband that I believe discerning God’s will is often more of a disposition of the heart rather than the worry if I am doing the right or wrong thing. For me, God’s will is to remember that Jesus entrusted me to His Blessed Mother. In all that I do or say, I am to remember that She holds me and will hold me all the way to Heaven. When I received Jesus in the Holy Eucharist this morning, I believed that it was only thanks to this entrustment that I was in that Church at the right time. Gratitude for this gift filled my heart and I was overwhelmed with the awareness of God’s unique love for me and my husband.
What could have been a day complaining that I woke up too early, turned into a day where I found Love!
From the depth of your misery, call upon the Blessed Mother:
Mary, carry me in your arms like your own child. Please allow me to become light like a balloon carried by the wind of the Holy Spirit, docile to carrying out God’s will and free from attachments. I do not want to know where this Divine Wind comes from or to where it will carry me. I do not want to impose my own plans and visions on God. I want to be docile like you.
Once you pray in this way, Mary will lift you up into her arms and, even if you still remain heavy and resistant like a brick, she will carry you where the Holy Spirit wants to lead you. She is the one who is fully sensitive to the subtlest promptings of the Spirit. She is the one who is always obedient to Him. (S.C. Biela, Open Wide the Door to Christ, [Ft.Collins, CO: IAMF, 2005], 146.)