Over the last few weeks I have had the beautiful experience
of answered prayers, even without my praying the prayers! What I mean is that I didn’t even know to ask
for things from my Good Lord, but He provided for my needs just the same. I
knew to be immediately grateful for these “answers” and that it was due to
Blessed Mother’s care and concern for me that the graces were provided. I thought I would share an example in this
blog.
My son needed a larger bed and I became motivated to replace
his old bed with a larger one that could be used by company. We had company
coming and the deadline to replace it was getting close. I spent a lot of time
complaining to my husband “we have to get a bed!” to no avail. I never thought
to pray for it to happen, I just kept complaining. Then, a week before we
needed it, a friend called out of the blue and said “I remembered you wanting a
bed and, in 30 minutes, I have my new bed coming and I hired them to take away
my old bed, but if you can come pick it up – it’s yours!” You bet we got that
bed! I couldn’t believe how easy and how perfect the bed worked out for our
needs. If I had been more proactive in buying a bed, I would have missed this
terrific deal. Blessed Mother knew the big picture…She got me the bed. I’m
convinced!
My habit prior to wanting to live the spirituality of
Communion of Life with Christ through Mary was to overanalyze everything. One
of the consistent advices from my spiritual director is “Do not overanalyze!”
It has been hard for me to follow this advice because it is second nature for
me to think too much. I am beginning to “get it” though. By overanalyzing, I am
promoting self-absorption, which offends my Lord deeply. I am to give my whole
heart, mind and soul to HIM. If I want to trust that I am in Mary’s arms, then
I must believe that all that happens to me is GRACE!
My complaining to my husband over the bed issue used to lead
to increased anxiety, and normally would have had me so absorbed in what I was
NOT doing and what I thought I needed to do.
But, through Communion of Life with Christ through Mary, I was given the
grace to instead take each day as it came.
Yes, I resort to complaining instead of praying – this is the truth
about me, I am not denying it. However, MOM is watching out for me. She lets me
see my truth and helps me grow in contrition over it, but She is also obtaining
the necessary graces for my fulfilling GOD’s will. It sure looked like GOD’s
will was for my friend to give me the bed, for I was given the graces NOT to be
proactive to get one prior to the week before I needed it. Each day of
forgetfulness was full of grace. And now, GOD is the one who gets all the glory
for the gift!
"We must stand in truth about our spiritual misery
before God, so that the grace of God completely penetrates our souls. When this
happens, we will become instruments that God will be able to use for the
realization of His plans, not only for our dear ones, but also for those whom
we will never even know. We will become instruments that will change the
world." (S.C. Biela, Open Wide the Door to
Christ, [Ft.Collins, CO: IAMF, 2005], 174.)
Thank you for this post! I can relate.. usually my thinking is "if the problems are not 'solved' by me then who is going to solve them"? I liked what you said "normally would have had me so absorbed in what I was NOT doing and what I thought I needed to do. But, through Communion of Life with Christ through Mary, I was given the grace to instead take each day as it came. "..
ReplyDeleteThanks for commenting! There are a lot of us out there who Mary is seeking to pick up and carry home!! Happy to be united with you in those Arms of Love.
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