The Lord said to her in reply, “Martha [Control Freak], Martha [Control Freak], you are anxious and worried about many things. There is need of only one thing…
By God’s grace, I was sharing my out-of-control fears with a relative, and she was able to direct me to an excerpt from a book entitled Jesus as Friend by Salvatore Canals, based on the teachings of St. Josemaria Escriva:
Because these fears were not crosses sent by the Lord, I do not seem to have the associated graces He promises me to carry them. I have wasted my energy and fed my soul with distrust in God’s plan for me. I have not been begging Blessed Mama to bring me back to the simplicity and trust of a child. The result? Fatigue. Anxiety. Crankiness. Sugar addiction. Acne breakout.
As I reflect on my misery further, I turn to The Gift of Faith by Fr. Tadeusz Dajczer. Here I find hope on a grander scale:
Through faith, we are incorporated into Redemption, which includes not only our sin but everything that pertains to it…Jesus, dying on the Cross, redeemed us from fear and from the feeling of being threatened, just as He redeemed us from sin….Grace flows continuously from the Cross so that we may be saved from sin as well as from fear…..How are you to fight this fear that surrounds you? If you fight it directly, it will end in a fiasco. There is only one unfailing way: open yourself up to the redeeming action of Christ through faith like that of an evangelical child. …You should say to yourself: There is no threat since He has redeemed me and has freed me from everything. I need only to accept this. (Tadeusz Dajzcer, The Gift of Faith, 3rd. ed. (Ft. Collins, CO: IAMF, 2012), 60.