The Little One
started school a few weeks ago. She started a full-day kindergarten program. I
am happy to report that she is enamored with her new teacher and wakes up eager
to return to the classroom each day. You can imagine how exhausting a full-day
program is for her. One night she fell asleep before dinner at 6 pm and didn’t
wake up until the next morning. She is learning a lot and adapting to the new
responsibilities. However, she is not always able to remember what she has to
do, and when. While this was a major stress for me as a little girl, the Little
One likes to say “that’s okay” each time she realizes she missed a deadline or
forgot her PE shoes.
At first I was
pleased with her lack of stress and ease at dismissing her “failures.” I
thought perhaps the Blessed Mother was trying to show me how I should live and
look at things from that angle. But, after a week of daily “that’s okay!”s I
started to get concerned. Something wasn’t sitting well with me in what was
starting to sound like a flippant response. I tried to explain that it isn’t
really okay to forget our library books each week and that we are required to
bring our PE shoes for every PE class. When it is her turn to bring in an item
for “show and tell” then she should bring an item on that day, not another day.
Because I
often think like a human being and not like God, I took the matter to spiritual
direction. What a grace! Through the instrument of the Spiritual Director
Blessed Mother was able to help me see through the fog! The issue isn’t that the
Little One is forgetful; the issue is that she doesn’t see the need for
contrition in these events. She wasn’t seeing the need to ask me to help her to
remember, to help her to do the best she can do.
No doubt, Blessed
Mother was trying to show me how I
should live and look at things through this little event with my daughter.
Blessed Mother wanted me to remember her rolemy life and that I need Her to help me to remember what is
important and what I need to do each day. Right away an example came to my mind
- daily Mass. Over the years I have come to know that living daily by the
Eucharist is a top priority in the spiritual life. However, lately I have been
saying to myself, “it’s okay,” when I choose not to attend some days. The issue
isn’t always did I attend or not attend…the issue is do I ask for the graces
from Blessed Mother to remember to hunger for the Eucharist each and every day?
Do I have contrition when I don’t make it to Holy Mass when perhaps I could
have made it there, if it had been my TOP priority and/or if I had asked Mary
to help me remember?
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Nothing compares to the
purifying and healing action of the Eucharist. There is no other cure like it
for our spiritual diseases. When you await the fruits of the Holy Mass you are already
purified to a certain extent because you meet with the Eucharistic Christ
through faith and hope….
At the
beginning of the day, during your morning prayer, you can entrust yourself to
Jesus, through Mary. During this time, you may ask Mary herself to immerse you in
the Redemptive Sacrifice of her Son. If you see that you lack good will and you
do not want to live by the Eucharist, ask Mary to await the Holy Mass in you,
ask her to thirst and quest for the Lord in you, and ask her to live with a
hunger for God according to the example of her Son….If you do not ask for her
intercession, then how can she help you? She does not want to take away your
freedom. (S.C. Biela, Open Wide the Door to Christ, [Ft.Collins,
CO: IAMF, 2005], 76 and 77.)
At night for prayers
we are helping the Little One to say her “sorries” for when she forgets to ask
us for help. In addition, we are teaching her to ask for Mary to help her
remember for the next day. As for me? Oh,
Blessed Mother, be my contrition for today’s messes, and thank you for
hungering in me and for me for my daily Bread!