After I shared with my spiritual
director my ideas of fasting, prayer, and almsgiving for the next 40 days, he
suggested I reread the chapter in The Gift of Faith on humble means. He
proposed that I “fast” from my pedestal – meaning my desire to be acknowledged,
admired, and esteemed. {And I thought candy, cookies, and chips would be hard to
give up!} He recommended I go to my adoration time in the arms of the
Blessed Mother, and keep the posture of the tax collector not the Pharisee
during the 10 minutes I had decided I could try to allot each day. He didn’t
specifically address my idea of thoroughly cleaning my house during Lent, but I
am guessing that would go under fasting from my pedestal; for knowing my
personality, if I end Lent with a clean sparkling home, I am sure I will take
all the credit and bask in the glory of a job well done.
What I appreciate about the
spirituality of communion with Christ through the Blessed Mother is how it has
helped me see how selfish I have been when deciding on what to do for Lent. For
example, I like giving up sweets so I can lose a few pounds. The spirituality
has also helped me release my narrow perception that fasting is only from food,
praying means only rosaries, and almsgiving is only donating to an organization in need.
I now realize charitable giving can mean more than dollars donated. It can mean
giving a "smile" to a coworker who is having a bad day. Or offering my “time” to listen
to a patient explain their ailments. Praying can be continuous, all-day-long,
short ejaculations of praise or petitions for souls in need or just a grateful
look to heaven for God’s generous bestowals. These are the humble means that
cannot be measured and most times not seen so as to gain recognition from
others.
I have also learned that before
starting any Lenten sacrifices I must first stand in the truth and admit I cannot
do them on my own, but only with God’s grace and through my entrustment to the
Blessed Mother may I try. And most importantly, God loves me even if I fail.
Jacques Maritain divides temporal
means that may be used for spiritual ends into two categories: rich temporal
means and humble temporal means. Those means which are visible and can be
statistically analyzed Maritain calls rich means. They are tangible things like
organizations, meetings, marches, church architecture and decoration,
audio-visual and mass media. A characteristic trait of rich means is their
influence on one’s self-love because their effects and results are apparent.
This has the danger of our claiming these results and our own and, as a result,
adopting an attitude of triumph.
Humble means are marked with the
stigma of the Cross and express one of the most profound truths in the Gospel:
“Unless a grain of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains just a grain
of wheat; but if it dies, it produces much fruit” (Jn 12:24). In humble means,
a true paradox of the dynamism of faith can be observed: the poorer they are –
that is, the more destitute, the more insignificant in themselves, and the less
visible – the more efficacious they are. As opposed to rich means, these humble
means are not dependent on tangible success, and they do not have any internal
need for temporal success. Humble means is the acceptance of suffering out of
love for God. You encounter such means when your knees hurt during prayer, when
you deny yourself something, when you question who you are and, at times, live
in great calmness, silence, and contemplation. Nothing much is known about
these things; they are invisible means. They cannot be measured by any
sociological statistics. However, these are the humble means that, in the light
of faith, prove to be the deciding factor in the fate of the world.
Tadeusz Dajczer, The Gift of Faith, 3rd. ed. (Ft. Collins, CO: IAMF, 2012), 147-148,150.
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