But when all was said and done, what was God trying to tell me?
I am reminded of a quote from God Alone Suffices by S.C. Biela:
Seeing our inability to accept various difficulties, our Lord lowers the intensity of our purification process. This should be a very visible sign for us that we are still opposing the working of grace in our lives. The reason for this is our lack of trust. The person who lacks trust closes the gates of his own heart and does not want to rely on God in everything.
(S.C. Biela, God Alone Suffices, 3rd Ed. [Ft. Collins, CO: IAMF, 2012], 108.)
LISTEN AND PUT IT IN YOUR HEART,
MY CHILD, SMALLEST OF ALL, THAT
IT IS NOTHING THAT FRIGHTENED
OR AFFLICTED YOU. LET NOT WORRY
PERTURB YOUR FACE, YOUR HEART…
AM I NOT HERE, I WHO AM YOUR
MOTHER? ARE YOU NOT BENEATH
MY SHADOW AND PROTECTION?
AM I NOT THE SOURCE OF YOUR
HAPPINESS? ARE YOU NOT IN THE
HOLLOW OF MY MANTLE, IN THE
CROSSING OF MY ARMS?
DO YOU NEED ANYTHING ELSE?
(words of Our Lady of Guadalupe to St. Juan Diego)
 Nican Mopohua [Aqui se narra] escrito en Nahuatl por Don Antonio Valeriano-Traduccion del Nahuatl al Espanol, trans. Fr. Mario Rojas Sanchez (Mexico: Los Libros Hacen/Edamex, 1990), trans. Ramon Pedrosa, “nican Mopohua.” http://www.emc.com.ph.monpedp/nicantext.html